Restless Purpose

I am certainly earlier on in this process.  God has blessed me abundantly in the time I have lived and I am thankful for the investment He has entrusted me with.  I don’t want to miss out on anything He has planned for me.  Lately though, I’ve been pretty critical of myself in what I am working on as far as my own projects and learning as well as my work for National Community Church.  In my heart, I yearn to continue moving forward and investing in the Kingdom of God.  The hard part is the actual investing.  This uncertainty in how to reach the goals that God has set before me has definitely made me quite restless at times.

However, the master didn’t tell his servants how to invest their money or how to do anything with that money.  He gave them the order, and they needed to figure out what to do in order to meet the end goal.  That is my frustration.  I feel like sometimes, it is really difficult to find the right ways to invest.  I am always looking for new ways to do things and use what God has given me but still I always seem to wonder if I’m doing enough or if I’m trying hard enough.  Am I working on things that matter and make a difference?  Am I pushing too hard on issues that don’t matter as much as I think they do?  What can I be learning in each and every circumstance and where can I go from there?  I’m learning more and more about God each day through the investment He has placed in me and even if I don’t always do everything right, I’ll still try to head the right direction and recklessly pursue the purpose he has place in my heart and in my life.

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